Home Return

I am a kiddo that refuse to grow, I do not read current news, Facebook everyday, and  in work, I am  totally just one big kids that concentrate on the things that I am doing, others I am just keeping my eyes away from it. 

I still remember the 10-days when I was in the PLKN, I finished the first module of the lesson to learn about "Saya" (Me), then they do have to learn about "Kita" (We). I am not sure how the lessons ended  up as I leave the place too soon as well as the people there. 

There are also some moments, I studied a few psychological books and trying to know about myself, how human being interacts, observing people and until I am too focus. I forgot how to talk. 

Anyway to cut long story short, I am one who concerns about me, myself, sometimes trying to have a little self development, sometimes I just do not want any people trying to influence me, set me free of I will do the things I want to do. 

I appreciate the way my daddy treat us, we are all girls at home, each having own characteristics and different life targets, he never really stop us on what we are chasing after, even though he wished we will look back and take care of them when they need us. 

Being self-centered being, yes, I was just trying to ignore their needs.

I am not a person who will frequently call back home and talk to my parents. I seldom go home even I have one week holiday in school. What I do is to get all the excuse and make myself busy. Dad will not force us home unless of any necessary as he know that the cost is high and it takes almost a day for the journey to go home and return. That give me a better excuse to escape from the blame. 

Finally I have graduated, again I am ignoring their wish for the kids to come home, I have chose to go another state for living. 

Dad always the one who try to look after us and mum, until we forgot that he needs to be taken care as well, or we are just trying to ignore the need. 

This time, although I say it is nearer  to home, I still finding excuse of not going home. It is not an usual case that our calls become at least once a week and dad will ask if I come home. I know that it is because they need help, There are always a long to do list when I come home, I always bring  my laptop home but never have a chance to open until I leave home again.

I never know how much it is considered as "enough", I guess it would never be enough, we owe him too much. For now, I wish that he can really let go his job and started to have his "retired" life. He has been busy for his whole life. I am not sure how will it end up with after my sister return. 

She has been disappear for quite some times not sure whether she kept  in touch with my parents, which I believe it might be a no. 

I still pray for the best for my dad,  and the day he will come to stay with me in JB and ask me to bring him around which he mentioned to me. I never really know about JB and I have forgotten he actually knows a lot more than me. The stories for him to earn a living and to go try out for the possibility of living before he decided to open a medicine shop that feed and protect us for more than 20 years. 

I am a kiddo, and giving the excuse of not returning home. But I do hope that the plan he has work out well. I really pray it would never become the regret of my selfish. 

Those are the dilemma that I am having. LIFE. 

An Unexpected Gathering at Melaka

There is a few stuff happening last week that going to make changes in my life here at JB. 

Not sure how much it would influence myself. Some good news that enlighten me and also some  to pull me down. I have end up to  go back Melaka for my family and my USM buddies are also have a short gateway and small gathering at my hometown. 

Not manage to join them all day long but managed to join them for a dinner. 

It feels like back to university life and we will be eating out after done with one hectic semester. 

The difference is that we are now all touch down at different city and seldom have time to call out one another. 

After almost half a year worked in JB, we have visitors from Penang and Kedah, we had dinner together and go for  a movie night  just like we were still a student. Not managed to join the weekend activities as I need to be at home, but stopping others from visiting UK Farm without me so they decided to go Melaka at the end. 

And we also  have another few come from Selangor/KL to meet up. 

A little story shared by my friend when she visited the company I had my internship, I was surprised when finally one remember correctly that I am not working under Old Town White Coffee. She met her client at the company, which is the QA manager, and they mentioned about me. 

Suddenly I miss the colleagues at Emperor's Kitchen, my supervisors and also other managers there. Not keeping in touch but it is great to hear that all of them are doing well. 

Shared the laughter, and February is going to have new members to join us in JB. 

Here another kick start for the "Goat" year, Huat Ahhhhh!

 

Bite-Size Knowledge

Today, one of my friend find me to ask about one thing that I have been putting it down for quite some time. My passion towards study, my passion towards my major, Food Technology.

During my final year, our professor has come out with a project, called "bite-size knowledge" focusing on food knowledge. It was exciting when few of us started to study on our own for the topic that we are interested and make it into video.

What is bite-size knowledge? To direct translate it, it is a little knowledge that can be gain after watching it. Our plan was to produce 1 to 3 minutes short videos to explain about food science and technology knowledge.

It can be seen easy, but it could be hard to use layman term to describe scientific knowledge. We have try on a few topics on enzymatic browning, meat texture, meat colors, E-numbers, bread staling, Modified Atmospheric Packaging (MAP) and Hurdle Technology, the topics are all mess up because we simply study what we are interested on.

Halloween Apple created by Daisy

She kept it for more than a week in the fridge

so it end up shrink and become the real devil. 

It was really fun when digging out the knowledge from the reference book, online articles, and even our lectures notes.

Unfortunately, the project stops when each of us getting busier for our final year projects and prof is too busy to introduce the open learning culture.

This blog was returned today as a remarks of this and thanks for my friend who suggest me to kick it a start again, it could be my "part-time job" as it will sure encouraging me to continue learning about food fact and yeah, that time I will love to shout "Welcome to Food Technology Course!"

Leave USM for almost half a year, 

all the memories are still vivid in mind. 

So, lets the stories for Bite-size Knowledge continues, 

This time, as an appreciation for Food Technology,

My course, my friends, my lecturers, my university, my "second home"!!!

Good Bye Year 2014! Hello Year 2015!!

Year 2014 has been another significance year which has been passed.

I am finally a graduate after 4 years, eat, play and enjoy in USM, Penang.

The footsteps have been slowed down during the final year, no more activities or long distance travel. Final year project can be tiring but a short day in Georgetown is sufficient to recharged. I am just not able to get myself ready to leave this lovely city.

The people, old streets, public transport and the national park are those filled up my undergraduate's years.

We had a few times farewell party together before we leave our coursemates, and each are now going into different path and continue their own story.

I wished that I could stay in Penang for a longer time, but after finish the final paper I do not have any reason to stay there again. It is time to say Goodbye and I do know that I will be there again soon.

July, I am home for a month, busy for nothing, moving away my four year stuff in Penang, and after a month I am again leaving home for another city in Johor.

Johor is always so near yet so far to me. Most of my friends study in Johor, as Penang is too far for them. But I never been really walk into Johor, I did have relative here but never really walk down to streets. The journey to south were ready to make by oneself, but my family decided to have a day off and come together with me.

Daddy would never interrupt our decision made, I appreciate the effort that he allows us to fall and stand up again. You know that you always can come home when you feel so.

Well, the life at home is never been a relax one. There are simply too many to do list that make the time feels so short.

Then I come to Johor without really much prepared, being taken care well by my USM seniors and there after come my USM coursemates and friends. Managed to meet some long lost friends and catch up with them too.

Initially I thought it is a bad idea for me to start here alone without my best mates, but there is always a reason for you to continue the journey and eventually you find the God actually gave you more. I have more interactions with the seniors and their batch graduates, also my USM mates and also other new people around.

It has been almost 5 months in Johor, and so many things have been happening each day. People come and go, left the memories in our mind.

People keep asking me when I will get a boyfriend here. Too soon for me to answer as it is not under my control. But I can tell that I have had an awesome life in Johor, with the stories will be continue in year 2015.

Everyday is a good day depending on how you evaluate it. New Year is just an another day to start with but what make it special is you can have a time frame to review what have been captured in the past one year and it reminds you to creates more awesome memories.

Say cheers!

Happy New Year!!

p/s I am drunk when writing this post. XD