My Childhood Dreams

Today, after finish the first paper for this semester, my mood is totally down as I seriously not well prepared for it. So, as usual, come back and online Facebook and then go to bed. *being negatively thinker as i used to be.*

Then, awake, messaged Elizabeth for dinner although she has told me not to disturb her for sleeping, but anyway just to ensure again. But no reply after half an hour so I went to cafe to have my dinner.

Mood not yet come, but since today finished 1 paper, so I told myself to rest for a day (as everyday also got an excuse not to study by the way). Looking for something to do instead of study. Then I remembered a video showed during the first level of English in USM.

The Last Lecture by Randy: The last lecture
This is supposed to show us during the level 400 as the last paper for English language for most of us (except for those who take other professional English paper). But our lecturer did show us earlier just for sharing during our last English class last year.

Although there is a lot of the talk I can't really listen clearly due to the slang, and also can't really imagine how the students can learn through that way in the class, I think it would be fun yet tired (I can imagine it as the Architecture student in USM here while doing their studio or projects). But memorable memories can be created and that's why everyone love to talk about it.

Or I shall said, if those are the things you have the interest with, or the things you have really dream to achieve it, yes, you will go on with that.
As in the video showed, he kept posting on the brick wall,

That symbolize that in order for us to achieve somethings,

there would be always obstacles in front that try to block us, 

and what we should do is to climb it and go to the other side. 

So I tried to think it back when taking my bath, What is my childhood dreams??
I can't really go back to the childhood time and list it all out, and I believe that if I would have return something like my wish, it will be all follows others and talk about to become a doctor, a teacher or whatever which is kind of similar to the others.

But What I can remember to the most recent one is (or maybe others is i have totally forgotten as it is way too far from me)

1. To be out of the hometown and see a different thing
2. To be an Engineer

What I have achieve it so far then?
1, First time leave home was after my high school, I went to work in Genting, being alone without anyone that I know. I am happy that I can survived (God knows my attitude and thinking that time). But this was just follow my other sisters footsteps. I wondered whether I can have more than that.
After that, I got an offer from USM to study Food Technology in Penang. God knows how afraid am I when I really got that offer. A place that totally strange to me and all my sisters continues their tertiary education in Kuala Lumpur. I am excited too but not after I get to know that I would be going there alone, with my luggage and myself, without anyone accompany. I start to struggle, whether I should proceed or really just to enter for UTAR where my sister is allocated. Luckily, I have made my steps further, I have now studying in Penang for two years.
More than that, I have joined my friends to go for a student exchange in Chiang Rai, Thailand for more 3 months. A great move for me I guess for the time I can do. Anyway, I am really waiting for the day that I could fly to some European country, which I am now not ready for it. Or by travelling alone for backpack. ^_^

2. Since form two, I have make a wish to become an Engineer, some may know the reason, however I don't even know what an engineer are doing. Haha. The dream to become an engineer grow stronger during form four, which our tuition teacher always promote it and with the physics he taught in class, I thought that to be an engineer is such an easy way.
But my thought was totally got destroy when I was in form six. When the gap between SPM and STPM level become so huge that I nearly fail to jump through.
Thanks God that last three months of study (after failed in the trial examination, I finally got frighten and really study them), I have got a B+ for my Physics for STPM.

But my dream of becoming an engineer have to change, I start to look for courses that do related to Physics but not as much as an engineering course should have. I have lost my way actually, I am doubt what to be done next. And even got once I thought of go for some courses like human resource (but banned by my sister @@).

By fate or by chance, I have got my first choice, Food Technology ( I wonder how did I actually put that as my FIRST choice in USM) But the result have come out, and Hell, people all cracking their head to get into university, and I am still considering whether to enter or not.

After considering all the factors, so I decided to enter. And you can't imagine that I am actually so damn excited when the lecturers here told that we are actually part of the engineers too (the FOOD engineer... LOL). At least I am not so lost compared to what I have dream for ya??

So, this is it, after today's moody, 

and after thinking back for the first time I entered here, 

I think and hope that I got some motivation to proceed with the final now. 

And guess that I need to find the real motivations for myself during the holiday.

 Some targets:
1. To have constantly training my stamina

Marathon Penang 2012 will be on the 18th November 2012! 

which I have registered for the Half Marathon again!

2. To travel to some new places other than Melaka and Penang.
    ( other than those original plans, Vietnam and Sabah too)

3. To read more English books to improve my English
    ( I have to admit that my English is so poor after I take this semester English course, it is way too hard for me to understand sometimes, and i did read blogs from some senior, sometimes too difficult for me to understand all the words too, even it is returned during his 18.@@)

Not to burden myself during the holiday, as the main things to do is enjoy the holiday.

As my 21st birthday is approaching too!

And also I guess I should do this,
4. To think of what I should do next for the remaining of my university life, it has gone half. And only 2 years left before I enter the work field. ( Or I am actually thinking whether to continue with Masters degree =D)

That's all for now. It's time to sleep.

For everyone that having their examinations now!

I need a lot of them 

(or perhaps I should be really study right away!)

GOOD LUCK to everyone!

my English, my secondary school life.

It is the third semester I take English paper to fulfill my University courses required for unit collections. Seriously, I don't like language because I don't have a good basic. I born in a ordinary Chinese family, speaking "pure" Malaysian Mandarin and learning all in Chinese until I stepped into secondary school.

I had a hard time in learning Science in English, Mathematics don't give me a trouble because I am still able to answers them by looking at the keywords and also numbers. Therefore for the first year in secondary, I am so quiet in the class. XD

However, everything changed while I enter Form 2, our class teacher knew my problem in English, she put me in between two classmates whom cannot speak Mandarin, Ranjeni and Beatrix. I sat beside them for a year and had no choice but to try to use my lousy English, often mixed with Chinese to talk to them after got ignored by my friends at the opposite (Tzyy Ning and Kak En, as they want me to learn to speak too).

As a result, not only I am learning the English, at the same time Ranjeni and Beatrix also on their way in learning some Chinese as I always lost the words in my brain and come out with those Mandarin words. Trying hard for me to explain what I am trying to say out.

So at the almost end of the year, I can still remember vividly during the parents' day when my dad came to class and met Puan Choo, she told him about these. But I told her, the plan for me to learn to speak is not totally success as the end result is Ranjeni can speak Chinese already and can understand more while we speaking in Chinese. (Puan Choo got a shock! hahahaha)

But since then, at least I am dare to speak out, although by using mostly the broken Malaysian English, with the Chinese Slang. Year by year, until now, when you in the situation you will just feel the used of it. But after come out from the secondary, when the language is needed, I am really appreciate my teachers and friends that have spend so much efforts on me, gave so much patient to try to listen, gave me the braveness to speak out, although with a lot of grammar mistakes.

Indeed, I miss the secondary school life again, my friends and teachers that we always had fun together, learning in class, performing on the stage, playing the traditional musics together, celebrating others birthday, and not to forget, doing all the crazy stuff together. This is us, our memories that do not fade although we have become so far apart with one another.

In class, I learned English from all of you.
In Music class, together we learn the music theory and play,
In Choir, we learned the songs and I did learn some new words from it too!

FRIENDSHIP between us will not come to an end. I hoped. Missing everyone again!!

After performing for Caklempong and Gamelan at Mahkota Parade during Hari Raya.

Wai Theng's Birthday

Langkawi Trip

Philharmonic Orchestra in KLCC  

Wun Sim's Birthday Celebration

While waiting for the others to visit the Petronas Science Centre, 

we did some silly things. =D

Us again, the 5 continuous years of Champion in Choir Competition for state level.

Performing Gamelan and Caklempong for the Asean Ministry of Educations at KL

Again, with our beloved teacher, Sir Ronald.

Port Dickson during National Choir Competition 

My first time joined for the Philharmonic Orchestra

This is our looks after the hard time of practicing and we WON!! 

and get ready to take the money to go for trip! haha

Life with music and friends.. 

Laugh and cry we passed through together.

With all the hard time we have gone through,

Pray that everyone is enjoying the life, 

And soon we will have a gathering again during the break!

Okay, take a too long break already. Time to study!!

Penang Marathon

It will be the third time for me to join for marathon for this year. As I never expected also, I will be fall in love to join it again and again.

The first time, I run with my cousin until the end I left her behind.

The second time I run without anyone accompanied. Just follow my speed, my heart.

And this time, I wonder will there be anyone with me. But still I would love to join.

Because I love the challenge that first time when people heard about that I am joining it first time for the half marathon, all say I am crazy.
Because I love the feeling when you achieve it when people told you it is almost impossible for layman like us.
Because I love the the satisfactions when you get the medal and after that the qualification certificates.

And most importantly, what I have seen along the journey.
Not everyone join in the run is as young and energetic as us, but still they try their best to run and get back to the finishing line within the time range.
There is an uncle I met when I almost giving up, his leg got injured already, but he continues his journey. A man come and approach and ask whether need help to call the ambulance, but he said he wanted to complete the journey and get the medal. The man ask why is it so important? The uncle reply, because I wanted to collect it. Haha.. so cute yet so much to be respect and learn from him the spirit right?

There is more uncle and auntie which are older than us and yet their spirit never lost to young man like us. So lessons earned through these journey. And are all to become my spirit for all this long. Never GIVE UP easily.

my first time for marathon =P

That's why, I am here ready for my 3rd time half marathon.

So anyone is interested to join me?! XD


p/s since everyone asking me to reach the full marathon. Hmm, I am start thinking for it for next year already! but see how is it goes lol... hahahahahaha. if with enough time for training.. hmm

We Not Naughty

As I always like to say, life is unpredictable. I had made my own mind that today I must go and watch movie "the hunger games" since a few day ago and even reject Kha Pui's invitation to sing K. What a first time in my life huh? But suddenly Elizabeth and me got a meeting at 12pm so have no choice but to delay our plan.

When we reached Queensbay Mall it has already pass 2.30pm and the movie is already on show and the next movie is on 5.20pm. After discussion we decided to watch another one, "We Not Naughty". Actually not choosing it because it is a Chinese based movie and scare Elizabeth do not understand it but as fate so we choose to watch it. XD

The movie two and a half hour long. And after so long I have watch a lot of Romance or Action movie, I realize that I am still so easily cry out. A nice movie mustn't be a really big and fantastic one. A simple movie like this also nearly make me cried on the spot.

The hero is always whom you meet in your life, it is not necessary to appear only in those action movie. I can't really count how many small story that the director try to put in the movie to try to remind us to be aware off.

1. As I saw quite frequent recently, people trying to share in Facebook, quoted by Albert Einstein: If you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, you will sure treat it as a stupid. I don't remember the exactly one. But is always the meaning of everyone has got his own talent and should be appreciate regardless on his performances in the examination.

2. A good Teacher is always appreciate-able. In the path of learning, we really need a good guidance to lead us along the way to the top of the mountain. It may be tough, as kids nowadays are hard to control as we always think that the adults cannot understand what we think, but a Good Teacher, with enough patient and willing to help us in any circumstance, really will melt your heart and a strong relationship will build.

3. How much is a Mother scarified when gave birth to everyone of us. When they old, they might be always complain, they might be so ridiculous to us, still she is our mum, who carried us for ten months and brought us to see the world, you couldn't understand how much pain they had to suffer in order to give us the life.

4.    How actually the internet can affect our life, apart of giving the convenient of communicating the world, it actually harm us a lot especially for the rumors to fly over the area, the country and even the whole world. How scary is people can do to spread the rumors, when normally if one people talk, it would just consider as fake one, but when everyone share it, you might just treat it as the real and believe it.
It is actually uncountable that how many people get killed by the internet, by the people who created all the fake news. Seriously, it may KILL PEOPLE!! When one cannot withstand the pressure and the rumors that fly around about him or herself.

It is much faster than spread it by women's mouth!!!

5. A very common scene while I am working in the Casino. Today you might earn a lot and you feels that the lucky star is by your side and you don't want to lost the chance to be earning more. You will become more and more greedy and thought that you are the God of Gambling.
Yes, I have seen too much of the similar example in the Casino and I hate it. The feeling of really play with the gambler is totally different. A lot which I met is they might earn a few k today, and they are so greedy that they think the luck is on their side so they must earn all the money from Casino. This make their crazy face out and it is really so ignoring.

Of course, there is a lot more we can see from the movie. Yeah, learn to appreciate it again and again. By the way, I am actually trying to find for a sodoku book for me to train my brain, unfortunately I can't find the cheaper one. so Ended up I found one book for emotion management. Guess that I should spend sometimes to look at what I have to really improve.. =D

Got time I wish I can make a note on the movie "A simple life" also. Those are really a good movie, without a lot of action, and it is really simple and yet it touched my heart. This is what I imagine a good movie should be, start from what is happening around us, very simple but meaningful.

Just like the colors in the beakers, it seems so complicated but we actually just make it from natural source, boil the red cabbage for 15 mins, then change the color by adding acid or alkali with it. Anything from the kitchen could be acidic, and alkali just simply adding it with salt..

AWESOME don't ya?? hehe

18/3/2011

There are a lot of things to be done yet there are a lot of thing already done. Most of it is EAT. I have taken a lot of nice meal in this weekend particularly.

After the heavy class loads from Monday to Thursday (I have to enter lab for 3 times a week), finally I found a reason to go out for relaxing after Friday short introduction meeting for stage decorations members. I am the group leader. Although I don't want to be one actually, but the job I have receive must be do my best also. =D

Ya, right after the meeting, we went to Queensbay Mall for a lunch and movie. Lunch at Manhantan Fish Market!

It's pre-celebrations for Kha Pui Birthday, she is officially 22 now.. hohoho...
Movie for Simple Life. A kind of artistic at the same time touching one..

Saturday plan was to study, study and study. But ended up I can only study (without entering my brain also) for 2 chapter only. (OH my GOD. how to survive?!) then fall asleep until my sister called me, because I have to take the car from her for Sunday hiking in the National Park in Penang, Teluk Bahang.

After reach my sis's house, she decided to accompany me for dinner, then talk about to watch movie ==". But entertainment always come first before anything else. Hahaha. So we went for a movie at night. <Dance Dance Dragen> is totally a Chinese New Year movie! I wonder how can it appear until now. Anyway, just for the sake of relieve tension, it is not a bad choice. The baby in the movie is simple awesome ! hahaha

Ate my dinner as Sushi King.. Double set meal.. lolz.. (not taking it down if not you must be asking me to keep fit again... =P

Back to hostel at around 12am. Try to do the on-line quiz for Accounting and Finance minor course, half an hours is not enough for those unprepared like me. Sleep around 1am, and wake up at 6am the next morning (had only 5hours sleep).
Very energetic to go there. But after a few steps starts to feel regrets already. Anyway, it became better after the body cool down. We were just continuously walk and walk, without taking a rest in the middle. Reach Pantai Kerachut about 1 hour and 8 minutes.

Enjoy the sand (feel the salt more) by lying down and play with it. Forget everything, let the mind clear of all kinds of thoughts. See the other 3 guys playing around at the same time just lying there with Sue Anne. I really enjoyed a lot. Hehehe. =P

We are good friends after the first day we meet in USM, everyone's first day in the orientation, and the only and one friendship that continue until today, not weaker but stronger. We have a lot in different and yet I enjoyed being crazy with her too. At the same time she also doing something crazy for me. As for today, she is having flu, and also just came back from trip to Medan, Indonesia last night, yet still she willing to accompany me for this tiring journey.

The story hasn't end for today, after rest enough, we are trying to find boat to back to our original position. But there is no LINE! Haha. Although there are boat who are there to wait for people come and approach, there is only 5 of us. They ask for rm80 for return trip. Although we actually can ask others whom can go back with us too. But suddenly in my thought, I requested them to walk all the way back.
And they really followed what I said, hahaha.. Good Brothers and Sisters I have ya? and this time we used another 1 hour to back. Its simply awesome as we not aspect we are able to do it! Muahaha. The experience after reaching back the main gate is so much satisfaction!


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