Then, awake, messaged Elizabeth for dinner although she has told me not to disturb her for sleeping, but anyway just to ensure again. But no reply after half an hour so I went to cafe to have my dinner.
Mood not yet come, but since today finished 1 paper, so I told myself to rest for a day (as everyday also got an excuse not to study by the way). Looking for something to do instead of study. Then I remembered a video showed during the first level of English in USM.
The Last Lecture by Randy: The last lecture
This is supposed to show us during the level 400 as the last paper for English language for most of us (except for those who take other professional English paper). But our lecturer did show us earlier just for sharing during our last English class last year.
Although there is a lot of the talk I can't really listen clearly due to the slang, and also can't really imagine how the students can learn through that way in the class, I think it would be fun yet tired (I can imagine it as the Architecture student in USM here while doing their studio or projects). But memorable memories can be created and that's why everyone love to talk about it.
Or I shall said, if those are the things you have the interest with, or the things you have really dream to achieve it, yes, you will go on with that.
As in the video showed, he kept posting on the brick wall,
That symbolize that in order for us to achieve somethings,
there would be always obstacles in front that try to block us,
and what we should do is to climb it and go to the other side.
I can't really go back to the childhood time and list it all out, and I believe that if I would have return something like my wish, it will be all follows others and talk about to become a doctor, a teacher or whatever which is kind of similar to the others.
But What I can remember to the most recent one is (or maybe others is i have totally forgotten as it is way too far from me)
1. To be out of the hometown and see a different thing
2. To be an Engineer
What I have achieve it so far then?
1, First time leave home was after my high school, I went to work in Genting, being alone without anyone that I know. I am happy that I can survived (God knows my attitude and thinking that time). But this was just follow my other sisters footsteps. I wondered whether I can have more than that.
After that, I got an offer from USM to study Food Technology in Penang. God knows how afraid am I when I really got that offer. A place that totally strange to me and all my sisters continues their tertiary education in Kuala Lumpur. I am excited too but not after I get to know that I would be going there alone, with my luggage and myself, without anyone accompany. I start to struggle, whether I should proceed or really just to enter for UTAR where my sister is allocated. Luckily, I have made my steps further, I have now studying in Penang for two years.
More than that, I have joined my friends to go for a student exchange in Chiang Rai, Thailand for more 3 months. A great move for me I guess for the time I can do. Anyway, I am really waiting for the day that I could fly to some European country, which I am now not ready for it. Or by travelling alone for backpack. ^_^
2. Since form two, I have make a wish to become an Engineer, some may know the reason, however I don't even know what an engineer are doing. Haha. The dream to become an engineer grow stronger during form four, which our tuition teacher always promote it and with the physics he taught in class, I thought that to be an engineer is such an easy way.
But my thought was totally got destroy when I was in form six. When the gap between SPM and STPM level become so huge that I nearly fail to jump through.
Thanks God that last three months of study (after failed in the trial examination, I finally got frighten and really study them), I have got a B+ for my Physics for STPM.
But my dream of becoming an engineer have to change, I start to look for courses that do related to Physics but not as much as an engineering course should have. I have lost my way actually, I am doubt what to be done next. And even got once I thought of go for some courses like human resource (but banned by my sister @@).
By fate or by chance, I have got my first choice, Food Technology ( I wonder how did I actually put that as my FIRST choice in USM) But the result have come out, and Hell, people all cracking their head to get into university, and I am still considering whether to enter or not.
After considering all the factors, so I decided to enter. And you can't imagine that I am actually so damn excited when the lecturers here told that we are actually part of the engineers too (the FOOD engineer... LOL). At least I am not so lost compared to what I have dream for ya??
So, this is it, after today's moody,
and after thinking back for the first time I entered here,
I think and hope that I got some motivation to proceed with the final now.
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And guess that I need to find the real motivations for myself during the holiday.
1. To have constantly training my stamina
Marathon Penang 2012 will be on the 18th November 2012!
which I have registered for the Half Marathon again!
( other than those original plans, Vietnam and Sabah too)
3. To read more English books to improve my English
( I have to admit that my English is so poor after I take this semester English course, it is way too hard for me to understand sometimes, and i did read blogs from some senior, sometimes too difficult for me to understand all the words too, even it is returned during his 18.@@)
Not to burden myself during the holiday, as the main things to do is enjoy the holiday.
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As my 21st birthday is approaching too!
And also I guess I should do this,
4. To think of what I should do next for the remaining of my university life, it has gone half. And only 2 years left before I enter the work field. ( Or I am actually thinking whether to continue with Masters degree =D)
That's all for now. It's time to sleep.
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For everyone that having their examinations now!
I need a lot of them
(or perhaps I should be really study right away!)
GOOD LUCK to everyone!
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