Calculations in Life. 当你计较越多，得到的就越少

One decision that I have made about 10 years ago, did not realize how much it will affect until the time comes.

Sometimes I do think about it again, wonder why I come after Science subjects that I am not confident with for my future but not the one that I really masters. Since young, I am good in calculations, school competition, examinations I am among the top. Worst than that, I am too proud to have this talents, while people is struggling to get an A in Additional Mathematics, I can always have half of the time sleep during the examination and still having an A on hand. 

But why on earth I abandoned my Mathematics and go for Food Technology? 

The initial idea was having no idea, simply due to I dont know about what to take and maybe study about what you eat will be a good idea at least if not using for work, it is good for life. Although end up I am still not sure how the food process make up the food I eat today, I realized there is a good thing I dont continue my Mathematics. 

Being too calculative in life you dont know how many things that you have loss in fact. Not everything cal be count from the numbers, more things comes behind it, there is more meaningful items happened behind the logical mathematics.

Once upon a time, before I entered university, I decided to leave home and go to Genting casino for part time job. Simply because it was the highest pay that I can gain during the time. Sum up the two times experience, it was about 9 months time, I have sufficient money to spend in my university life with addition of PTPTN loans without the need to work part time. I can focus to be a full time student and play as much as I could. 

But what I have lose, I lose the most precious health, among the last part time, I work for almost 6 months, with the midnight shift, with the second hand smokes, without any kind of sports, my body totally turned upside down. 

I almost stuck at there with the amount that I earned and the laziness to continue studies. Luckily manage to step out the comfort zone and leave the place. The experience of working at there definitely is not a loss, I have managed to find and know a few good friends there, most of us have resign and continue study and graduated. 

I thought I will be going back to work part time during the semester break, but due to some issues, it ended up not once I go back. At the end, I chose to help in the shop and gain little pocket money to cover off my expenses at university. But it end up to be the last four years that I am working and helping in the shop, the last moments that I have with my precious daddy. 

May be it is also faith that I chose not to come back to Melaka for work. Once leave, cannot find a place to locate myself back to home. More things that cannot estimate, he left us forever within a year I started to work. 

Funny facts: I found home every time I travel, Genting, Penang, Chiangrai, and now Johor. But not the home after my beloved daddy left us. I never thought so many things happened in the short time. But thanks to that, I am sure and confirm to kick off the start as soon as I can. 

Never underestimate how calculations can kill a life. A helping hand to the poor can save a life. A lot of down times in life, I have supports from daddy, sisters, buddies, friends, colleagues, and many more stranger. They guild me to where I am today, although not rich in pocket, but richer in mind. 

That is what make me feel rich. A wiser mind. Although money is essential to life, what is more valuables is people that you met in life, they are the treasures in life. 

People always wonder why I have so many different people to entertain, my long lost seniors, seniors, juniors, ex colleagues, course-mates, and even lecturers. Simple as an appreciation, they build who I am today, although still the introvert and quiet kids, she managed to start travel and see the world, she managed to gain knowledge from everybody, not from books but more from the life experiences.