Marathon and Me

Back to 5 years back, I am not a marathon runner.

The marathon I join before that, it was just for the co-curriculum marks as it is international level, which was only 5 km and 10 km. The 10 km one was killing me from walking for two weeks after the run. It was me, at the age of 16.

But faith has drawn me into the world of marathon when I came to Penang. I had my first half marathon run during my first year when my uncle registered for me to experience a "real" run, and when that time, my friends around was thinking that I must be crazy to go for the 21-km distance.

I am not sure whether I am crazy enough, but since I have already registered with it so will just try for my best. Without much thought (I have no confidence that I can make it also, but will go for the full journey), I did it!

Since then, it became an annual event to join, to keep myself workout and also for an annual review of myself during the long journey (without Facebook but just running). You run with thousands of people, from 5 years old to 70 years old.

Some well equipped with their sports attires, some uncle just constant walking ahead to finish the journey and some looking for people at the same speed and try to run together. I am one of them, one who constantly look for a target and try to speed up. It can be a human, can be a trademark, can be a milestone, anything that keeps me running.

One thing that kept constant: I ran alone, always.

Finally I feel bored with the 21 km journey after three times of running. So started looking for people to join me for Full marathon during my final year in USM. I don't know whether I can make it, but I started to really study about marathon running, reading books, go for workshop to learn about proper way of running.

And this year, without much consideration like last year, I join for the Full marathon again, although still not much training. Timing is always not the concern when  the journey is the concern that you completed it and when seeing the youngster and elderly that run together with you with different targets to achieve.

Yes, it is almost time again for Penang Marathon this year. Time to countdown for it and last year I failed to achieved it on time. So it will be the target to finish within the time and also preventing myself from injury is also one of the task so that I am able to finish the journey at least.

Marathon has brings a lot of memories of training and courage from people around me, because without the courage I won't be able to break my own  challenge for Full marathon, without the people I don't even will consider for the second Half marathon run.

And one more lesson that it tells me too that I need to revise each year, to be humble and be yourself, you know your legs and run with your speed, it is no wrong that you break your timing record each year but what is matters is to protect yourself from injury for this long journey, so that you can reach the end point and go for the medal.

Which is one of the believe that I hold strong for living, be humble and just do your best.

Me with my favorite pyjamas

What do you want to achieve in life?

I have been asking myself for a couple of years for this question, what is my targets in life?

Is that one must have written down their wishes then realized it one by one?

Years ago, I dream to become an engineer, without knowing what exactly engineer is doing, it is just because I like Physics and Mathematics. But reality have pull me down when I finally failed myself in my Physic test and I start thinking again of walking through this path. Since then, I lost my way of where I wanna to go.

Where is the strongest point you hold?

To be honest it is a hard question for me to answer.

I thought I am observant but I do realized I missed out important points sometimes.
I thought I like challenges but I do step backwards when there is uncertainties, unless one thing, when there is no way of return.

If I have a choice, I am willing to be one who gives support to the people  instead of accept the support from others. But the world is rotating in a circle, there must be two ways instead of just a single pathway.

Walk out from the study platform to working life, I thought my job will be ended up in lab, hiding at the corner and do  my work. But lucky or not, I have been sitting in  the office, dress nicely and dealing with people everyday, whether in or out from the office.

Glance back of the journey, which of the pathway is all well planned?

No, it doesn't. Each of the journey is made unplanned and it bring me to where I am today, which I am also confusing where do I reach now.

So until this stage, I thought I can still to be who I am for the initial few years while I get my work experience. Life has been like fast forward now, people start asking what is your goal in the next 3 years?

Is it one must have a target in order to strikes and climb?

I always thought I will just do the best for what is available and get ready when the time comes.

But no, I have missed out also a lot of opportunity given because of not holding them strong enough.

Yeah, it time to think about why and what I want to achieve for life and make a real plan for it. Muahahaha

Back to my old nest (blog) + Batu Pahat gateways for my loved one

At one point of life, this blog was really too many memories for me that I need a break from it, so I abandoned it and open for a new one.

A part of my life that I have my important growing stage of the life, where I am actively mix around the people, and travel and getting  new experience. In one stage, I think that I have really gone too much, forgotten the most  important personal development, which is to take care of the little introvert kids behind me.

But look like opening for two different email is a trouble, I failed to combine them into one and log in and out each time make me thinking to come back to this old nest. Also, find the balance of me of getting the introvert and extrovert a damn and just be whoever I am.

So this blog will be reactivate again, but anyway I do realize that I am a bit restricting myself from blogging.

Come back to recent story of mine, life has been really fast forward to an extreme now.

Life in JB for almost 2.5 months, people don't call you a newbie in the office anymore, although I am still thinking that I am new. Anyway, a lot of things need to be learn around, and a lot of people is being introduce each day.

I am really luckily, having a lot of old faces here when I first arrive, my marathon kaki and senior, Lee Hoon and Doreen, said hello to the far-distance relative in Kulai with my family, I did also have a few of my buddies study/studied in UTM, my coursemates which enter the same company and also who stay here.

One of which surprising me is my old buddies Nicholas is also working in JB, which I thought he is back to his hometown at Selangor. and that I also managed to met one of my super senior back in middle school that worked in Singapore, had dinner with her and shared our stories. Good thing is she found her future ones and going to be get married next year maybe.

Love stories that is always around me that I am always not alone. I am also feeling in love also, just that the love I getting is from the buddies around me. Nor matter where I go.
The journey long enough for me to trace back all the thick and thin that in every part of the life I met these people and that make my life filled with all different stories. How lucky!

One best friend of mine is non other than my girlfriend, whom I met her 10 years ago during my middle school, whom listen to me along the years and whom she also introduce me as her boyfriend. Hahahaha

We have been promising each other to visit our university, and she had been visited me at Penang twice during my second and final year,

but I have never able to make it to my promise. And finally, I have been to the South Malaysia after years of heading to North, but I had never thought our distance is still quite far away.

Well, by hook or by crook, I try to be stubborn to visit her during her convocation last weekend, I know it is going to be a tiring week for her but I insisted, just to make sure I visited the place that she have been growing for 4 years and trying to touch up to the unexplored area of hers.

So, yea, last week, I thought of the 1.5 hours journey has become 2.5 hours due to the jam and weather, tired but feel it contented. Met her new working colleagues, coursemates, juniors, church mates, and of course, her family.

Nothing much I really spend, due to I go there empty hand and also she treated me for the meals. So basically I really just go there and dress nicely to take some photo for her convocation. See so many people that around her, that treated her so great that I really happy for her.

I am glad too, have her around me to share my happiness and also dark moment. Hope the best for her future undertaking and I know that she is doing it really well, despite the complaints that she just got darker. LOL

Forgive me end up to have a not wake up face.