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Decided to delay a day home to just stay in my nest in Johor as for the pure ME time.

I really got to take up something before my brain is totally rusted.

Anyway, It is finally a long long break of four days of holiday because of raya! Going home tomorrow for some stuffs to do on Sunday.

Going back to Melaka will trigger my memories again over this period of time. Back to secondary we will be busy preparing for Caklempong and Gamelan performance for the raya and also singing for choir during the National Day. Those moments that covers up for my teenage and as one of the starting points to force myself to understand more about languages and cultures.

It is almost 10 years ago since i first touch music and then only started to learn to speak different language. I could not imagine how much these experience has changed me. My friends, my teacher, first crush when seeing handsome seniors sing well and knows play all the music instrument. I have no resistant to those talented people because of my ordinary.

I love things that make life wonderful. And I really met a lot of them during my secondary!

Missing those crazy moments of staying late and Saturday training sessions. Missing the time we can skip classes for the training for competition and performance. Missing those that I have met over the 4 years in the club. Missing my friend who amazed me of her talent in self learning all the music instruments.

Throwback. Well, out of topic again.

Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends!


Beside missing my "childhood", I also missing all the Malay food!

Satay, Rendang, Curry, Kuih Dodol, Lontong, Ketupat, Sambal and etc.

p/s: realize during my secondary school there is still a lag behind date that none of us owns a digital camera. So we only have those printed photo so not able to show off here. Haha. But to be honest a real failure as I can't even read a music note now. >.<

The smell of LOVE

Last week, I went to Penang for a short trip, Penang is well known of its Food Paradise. It is more than a place for food, it is also a place full with memories and people that I treasure.

Hang out with Debera, Sue Anne, Stanley, and a really short meet up with others, I still missing someone, my food hunter partner Elizabeth. Non-stop posting food from West Malaysia to attract someone fly from East to West. Hehe. But anyway really glad that after she leave me she finally got lose some weight.

The planned trip change as according to the situation. Not manage to go to all the places I want to go, Jelutong Night Market, Balik Pulau for Durian Buffet, even reached the Teluk Bahang National Park it rains suddenly after two days of sunny day, I am not able to visit the monkeys at the beach.

Bring those two food cravings, I went back to Melaka this week. Without mentioning it out yet, mum give sister and me each people two nyonya dumpling as them in the house still try to eat vege food.
(I am such a happy kids by that time).

Evening, girlfriend text me that she is on her way back to Melaka too, ask her if she wanna meet up. She say next day due to she come back for a reason, DURIAN! So without thinking much, I reply her to ask for some delivery. So end up her parents and her bring one big tupperware for me!
(My level of happiness reached a top line now~~)

What a nice coincidence that both of the cravings satisfied at HOME! Is daddy listened to me and have angels to bring me food? Hehe.

So these two weeks, I keep posting for food whether it is that special due to I am back to the happy kids that running around Georgetown to have something tasty, and even back to home, to take a break from town back to a peaceful village. Listens to all the gossips and do the responsible as a child. Anyway, it is really tiring to mop the floor since I leave home. LAZINESS to the maximum. Well, life needs some challenges to overcome to grow.

Tomorrow is Monday again. >.< With the smell of food that stays in the memories, fighting for a new week! LOL

《等一个人的咖啡》观后感

这星期回到了大学的城市，离开了将近一年的时间，虽然时间没有很长，也不算短，重游旧地让我更想要找回原来的自己。我不太能和人乱哈拉，内向的人能聊得来的对象，十个能找到一个吗？或许是这样我才会到不同的地方去认识新的朋友，这样才能把朋友圈扩大，才能掩盖内向的内心。

三天的时间我每天和不同的朋友去了不同的咖啡馆，却一杯咖啡都没有点，而是喝了我被禁止喝的冷饮。昔日和朋友出去都会选择喝卡布其诺，没有咖啡的故事，纯粹的因为名字很cool。大学时期，开始和朋友出去喝咖啡，也坚持的卡布其诺，朋友问我为何不能忍受咖啡因却喝那么苦的咖啡，我也无法回答，是喜欢那咖啡的味道，还是记忆中的那些名字，之后慢慢的学会咖啡的种类，espresso, cappuccino, mocha, latte 等等 ，卡布其诺还是最适合我的咖啡。我不太常喝咖啡，因为会失眠，和某些特定的朋友，能够让我有足够熟悉的味道我还是会不知觉的点这杯咖啡。

回到标题，我知道这部电影上映很久了，不过到了今天才看，可能还没看电影就看到太多的笑点，我担心这电影和我看小说的感觉太不一样，我最后都没有到戏院去看。有时候，只想要一部单纯的电影，不需要大制作的效果，只要看完了电影有温馨的幸福感，对我来说就值回票价了。

或许因为电影时间有限，很多小说情节没有出现，看小说能给予的体验刺激得多，不过看了电影的感觉很不错，尤其是老板和老板娘的故事，帅哥就是老板娘等的那一个人，不过阿不思等的是谁啊？

每个人，都在等一个人。

始终都相信，总有一天会等到牵起红线的那一个人。我们遇见的每一个人，虽然不是我们要等的那一个，可他们等一个人的故事，会感动我们，让我们学会珍惜当你遇到那个人。和朋友见面聊起的一个往事，些许的内疚我曾经的太理性，想着或许我在那时候就好像拿着看不见的刀子，也难怪朋友的担心。

还能理性，代表你没有陷入爱情对吧？

旧地重游，在新城市已经快要一年了，这年龄的朋友大家都常会提到的事就是有没有对象，不管你是否想要听到，有些则是你也希望他们也赶快等到生命中的那个人。我想要重新找到生活的定义，等到绵绵不绝的生活热情！

下一站，幸福。

和教授聊天，和朋友说话，我真是时候开始计划下一趟旅程要到哪里了。就以这短短的旅途预祝我能重设幸福定义，暂时的一个人，沉淀沉淀，思考思考，太久没有和自己说话，脑袋瓜在想什么我都不太清楚了。

槟城，美食站，在我还没准备好下一个新地点，

我还是重温旧味道好了，

停下脚步，去寻找因为速度而遗漏的美好风景。

人生二十四，大家都在聊什么？

上个周末回家，找了许久不见的老朋友。我们那一班，终于有了一个正式的医生，现在剩下唯一一个读医科而已经毕业的同学。

话说，大家都在谣传着：曾经一个成绩顶呱呱，文武双全的同学现在已经放弃医科，转攻其他科目，传言也分为两个；一个是他沉迷佛法，专心钻研去了泰国，另一个说法则是他还在路上，只是转了科系，学了泰语。无论哪个说法，都令我感概生命的作弄。小弟我直到现在还无法定下心来决定我人生往后要走的路，那么多年走的路都是看到哪里有光就往哪里钻，没有办法做选择，所以都让自己没得选；倒是很羡慕大家，他是其中一个，很早就下定决心要读医科，还打算要做脑科之类的专科，那时，他也有一个要好的女友，完全就是人生胜利组，简直就是一路安稳的和已经安排好往后的人生那样。

会写着一段，因为今年的聚会，大家都不约而同的不知从哪里听到消息，然后就问来问去查证，其实我真的不晓得到底发生了什么事，唯一能够确认的就是如果我可以在今年的毕业典礼去看究竟他是否有从大学里医科毕业。否则也就证明了谣传中故事，也和开玩笑的和朋友说或许我可以直接和他父母在大街上遇到的时候查证，不过在那么多小学、中学朋友的父母都已经混熟的情况，我对他的父母还真的没什么印象。

话题回到我和医生的聚会，三个臭皮匠一个诸葛亮，三个不同个性的老朋友，说的话题虽然还是逃不了现阶段大家都是单身的话题。不同的是，和我同年龄的男同学在三年前就开始被妈妈很努力的介绍女孩，也很早就已经开始存老婆本，打算了他想提早退休的计划，唯一缺的就是女朋友。他是一个好男生，很绅士的一个，除了很宅，和黄色话题接受程度很广之外，一直认为是他英文教育的关系。不过色归色，他却是没有交过女朋友的那一种。时间的成长，我们期待着他可以找到他的另一半，让他可以变得稳重些。

然后，医生和小男生开始了教育课程，她把她学习接生的过程栩栩如生的叙述了一遍，搞得身为女人的我真的不敢想象，本来是分享给小男生让他知道女人分娩的痛苦，结果他一直看着我说：看吧，你将来有一天会面对这一切。。。。

无言，身为女人的医生和我，幻想着我们未知的另一半是否能够接受助养，免去这些女生需要承受的痛，啊！为什么我们会把话题扯的那么远？！
八字还没一瞥呢！大家还是赶紧去寻找属于自己的另一半吧。。。。

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

我们这一班，至少十年的友谊，大家早已各奔东西，

不知道谁会先发红炸弹？

场景从韩国餐厅转到嘛嘛档，换了人物，小男生加班去了，新进的有我们班的老博士，医生看到博士第一眼问是老博士如何返老还童，从一头白发变成黑发，也是老话题了，话说初中开始白发苍苍的博士，在进了大学之后头发变黑了，到现在如何办到的还是个谜，博士不肯把秘方告诉大家，所以就当作奇迹还是会有发生的时候。

话题转变到了国家经济和生老病死的话题，严肃多了，博士提到想要离开马来西亚工作的念头，医生则聊到在学医过程中在医院看到的离别，她也知道我老爸的事件，在国外生活六年她想家的心思，我们都是家里永远的小公主，爸爸永远的小女儿。

周末就这样结束了，回到家里，告诉妈妈不能和她们去旅游的决定，考虑了一个星期的事，今年的年假用的差不多了，还是乖乖的在附近兜兜转转就好，与其走马看花，不如定下心来准备下一趟旅程。

时隔一年，我将要回到槟岛，感受岛屿的热情啦！期待-ing~~

恢复，需要时间

昨天，我回到马六甲，事情就这样过了五个星期。有家却没有回家的意义，导致我周末都窝在新山。从一开始的睡不安稳，到开始做很多奇奇怪怪我也不能记得的梦，现在终于可以睡得好些了。

可笑的是，没有一个人的家，我竟然没有办法独自一人在那里呆太久，太多的回忆，好的坏的，开心的，争吵的，所有的声音，现在变成鸦雀无声。

所以昨天，算起来不到12个小时的时间，我却把时间填得满满的，没有让自己有休息的时间。想起网路歌手的那一首《Say Forever》，我一个人并不孤单，想一个人才孤单，这个时候，最怕寂寞找上门，纯粹的不想想太多，所以拼命的找活儿干。

时间也过了快一个月，虽然没有完全恢复但是至少已经接受了。

老姐也快回来了，希望一切尽快重回正轨。

看到大家认真的生活，我也得尽快找回我那失去的活力，好好学习和干活了，年轻不留白，再不疯狂我们就老了。大家加油吧！

大学的学弟妹，大家也快完成学业了，时间那么快就又过了一年，一年感觉那么短，却发生了那么多事，学习速度也需要赶紧加强了，岁月不待人啊！

Journey of Life: Farewell until We See Again.

It is weekend again, sick people is in the house doing some room cleaning and facing the computer again.

Soon, there is going to be close up for Q2 2015 for my work, time is flying fast that I have been working for almost 10 months. It has been so much change within one year, so much have happened.

Something that never change, I am still myself, still a human. But the surrounding has change, there is so much changes, I am still getting used to the changes, but the stubborn behind is still dragging me.

There is a lot of farewell that I have passed through over the year.

Left Penang at last July, a city that I have stay for 4 years, the people that I familiar with, and come to a totally new city to start working. A place that I have never consider to stay before. Or else, I would have listed UTM as my first choice of university.

I thought I would choose the capital city of Malaysia, so I chose to have my internship there. Fate has brought me here to Johor, maybe because I have no idea of this city. Or maybe because my beloved friends are around here too. I know that I might be come here alone, but it won't make me feel that I am alone anyway.

I am an introvert but lucky to have various kind of friends that I have meet them from each part of life. I am yet to explore the world, but their presence has made up my world. I don't need to know everyone or to let everyone know me to built my world, but I need someone who willing to standby and listen to me when I need.

I am glad that I have know many of them that willing to do so. Last month was really a hard time for me, one of the hardest farewell I have come across in my life. It is still hard for me when I think of it. But I am glad to have all my friends who concerns.

My 10 years relationship's "girlfriend" that always by my side through the up and down along these years. I almost cry when I saw her after the incident happen. How much my story that I have been sharing with her, although we both live in different city. I am glad that I have this special relationship with her and I trust that she is one of them that will accompany me along the journey of life.

I am glad that you have came across my life.

Of course there is so much appreciation I would like to give to all my friends. My words are always emotional, but in reality I am always appear in reverse, emotionless.
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Another farewell is coming, we had a dinner together yesterday night, it was a very short one and nothing to do with farewell, because we know that we are going to meet again. I strongly believe that.
We did not talk much until we attended the job interview together, last year around this time.

We did not expected we were end up working in the same company until the results announced. We both have our close friends that we would like to work together. But it ended up that we are the only among our friends who succeed and so it is how the story begins.

We are the newbies to this city and to work. We shared the story almost everyday although working in different office. She is one of those who taught me again hospitality and friendship. She is also one of those who supports my crazy idea and crazy with me.

Ten months in the same city, although it is not much time that we have spend together, and let's the story continues after four months (depends on our fate again).

Thanks for being a friend, a sister in this period.
Thanks for listening and sharing with me.
Thanks for introducing me to the good foods with Sofiah.
Thanks for accompany me to go shopping, movie, hiking and exploring Johor.

Until we see each other again.

Regards,
Jiao Wei.

Our first annual dinner, she is one of the committee. 

They always wanted to bring me for chicken chop but always wrong timing 

and they brought me to different places for food. 

Yesterday night with new restaurant again.

We are all the happy kids.  

我的全能老爸

他，是我人生的一个指标。

有人说，父亲是女儿上一世的情人，这意味我 老爸上辈子的 人缘很好很好，以至今生有四个女儿？

他，没有很帅的外表，朋友却不分男女老少，态度平易近人，所以每到的地方，都可以很好的和人们相处，没有四海为家，不过四海之内皆兄弟也。

他，没有读很多的书，却有着幽默和认真的态度，在最后这几年的人生，也开始对于之前很多东西，学习原谅和放下。

他，没有吃遍山珍海味，却是进得了厨房的好男人，他喜欢观察和学习，是个吃货，在认识了几个厨师朋友，也捉到了不少诀窍。（原谅我没有继承这些，不会煮菜，至今也只能煎蛋和蛋炒饭）

他，有的是豁达的人生观，虽然有时候还是会对某些事的观点喋喋不休，但他所给予我们女儿的自由，很多父母没有办法放手让孩子去跌倒成长的，他在大家都觉得我还无法离开家自主的时候，坦然的给了我绿卡，让我有机会去学习。

只是我不是一个孝顺的女儿，一味只顾着长大和往外间撞，以很多年前他担忧我的不独立为借口，越走越远，远到我无法回头。

回家，是有多久才回家一趟啊，假期，都是用来旅游和休息的，所以用更多的借口不回家。累了，没办法回家。

他没有怨，只希望我们回家的时候能够帮忙做点事儿，但当一切变的理所当然，那份沉重感，更提不起劲回家。

虽然说，回家的日子都用来面对整个家，或许每个人对家的定义都不一样，我是一只风筝，被一根长长的线牵引着，却无法 被紧紧的抓着，平衡点在于一拉一放之间。

一直想说声谢谢您，给予我们的一切 自由。