I don't know what title to put for this blog. Today is the Chinese New Year first day, the big day for most of the Chinese, the time of the year for family gathering, I finally get some break.
I have come back to Melaka for the celebration of course, after missing the one last year due to far away from home.
Last few weeks has been a little busy, to settle the wake for my mum and to reply to those friends who are really concern. Sorry for those short reply on that few days as it was really long day for us, the sisters.
Thanks for those who understand and find me later at the time and to ensure that I am alright. I even get the love all the way from NZ to Malaysia!
I can't say I am good but with all the love and supports from family and friends, I am doing fine and thank you for all the understandings, and all the calls and meet ups to talk to me, to listen to me and to show your care.
I am indeed, feeling all the love and care, and more appreciate of all the freedom and lesson my father had taught me when he is still around to prepare our independent and the ability to survive on our own. The little girl who don't even dare to take a public transport in secondary, had made her way to the outside world again and again. Only that she has been gone too far, too far until she refuse to go back home. One thing that made him proud yet disappointed.
And then for my mum, I am always the little princess at home too. Even the last few months she is not able to cook, she will still ask the helper to cook me good meal whenever I tell that I am coming. I did not do much as a daughter, but only glad that I managed to come home, meet her and talk to her especially the month of October before I started working again.
She has been standing up strong after a few times of falling. This time is coming too soon. I am not ready for it. Yet, it has become the fact and nothing can changed.
I always feeling sorry of being not a good daughter. However it is always not the reverse way. Even if history do repeat, I would chose the same path.
Thank you for both daddy and mummy, for being understanding, for not forcing me the way you want me to be. Thanks for the freedom, thanks for the letting go.
Thank you for all the family members supports. We are not always meeting up one another but we can always feel the love. From the first step of me stepping to the university at Penang, the very first step of learning to be independent from home, until I graduated, started working, and when I am far away from home.
Thank you for all the friends who are concern, I feel all the love also. These amount of love, have very much filled for this year valentine. I am not always feeling alone or lonely without a life partner, thanks to all these good people I met in life. Of course, I do hope to find a soulmate in life soon. Meanwhile, I will stay strong and life will still go on.
Thank you for all the wishes and blessings too. Lastly, wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year, this year just a simple wish to everyone to stay safe. However life is short, do go ahead with whatever challenges that scare you most. With that, you grow and be stronger than yesterday.
Little sheep is now with that Wanaka Tree, New Zealand.
The lone tree that standing in the middle of the sea,
alone but not lonely,
with all the tourists that visiting everyday,
and sometime the bird that resting on it.
My most favorite spot in New Zealand. =D
