恢复，需要时间

昨天，我回到马六甲，事情就这样过了五个星期。有家却没有回家的意义，导致我周末都窝在新山。从一开始的睡不安稳，到开始做很多奇奇怪怪我也不能记得的梦，现在终于可以睡得好些了。

可笑的是，没有一个人的家，我竟然没有办法独自一人在那里呆太久，太多的回忆，好的坏的，开心的，争吵的，所有的声音，现在变成鸦雀无声。

所以昨天，算起来不到12个小时的时间，我却把时间填得满满的，没有让自己有休息的时间。想起网路歌手的那一首《Say Forever》，我一个人并不孤单，想一个人才孤单，这个时候，最怕寂寞找上门，纯粹的不想想太多，所以拼命的找活儿干。

时间也过了快一个月，虽然没有完全恢复但是至少已经接受了。

老姐也快回来了，希望一切尽快重回正轨。

看到大家认真的生活，我也得尽快找回我那失去的活力，好好学习和干活了，年轻不留白，再不疯狂我们就老了。大家加油吧！

大学的学弟妹，大家也快完成学业了，时间那么快就又过了一年，一年感觉那么短，却发生了那么多事，学习速度也需要赶紧加强了，岁月不待人啊！

Journey of Life: Farewell until We See Again.

It is weekend again, sick people is in the house doing some room cleaning and facing the computer again.

Soon, there is going to be close up for Q2 2015 for my work, time is flying fast that I have been working for almost 10 months. It has been so much change within one year, so much have happened.

Something that never change, I am still myself, still a human. But the surrounding has change, there is so much changes, I am still getting used to the changes, but the stubborn behind is still dragging me.

There is a lot of farewell that I have passed through over the year.

Left Penang at last July, a city that I have stay for 4 years, the people that I familiar with, and come to a totally new city to start working. A place that I have never consider to stay before. Or else, I would have listed UTM as my first choice of university.

I thought I would choose the capital city of Malaysia, so I chose to have my internship there. Fate has brought me here to Johor, maybe because I have no idea of this city. Or maybe because my beloved friends are around here too. I know that I might be come here alone, but it won't make me feel that I am alone anyway.

I am an introvert but lucky to have various kind of friends that I have meet them from each part of life. I am yet to explore the world, but their presence has made up my world. I don't need to know everyone or to let everyone know me to built my world, but I need someone who willing to standby and listen to me when I need.

I am glad that I have know many of them that willing to do so. Last month was really a hard time for me, one of the hardest farewell I have come across in my life. It is still hard for me when I think of it. But I am glad to have all my friends who concerns.

My 10 years relationship's "girlfriend" that always by my side through the up and down along these years. I almost cry when I saw her after the incident happen. How much my story that I have been sharing with her, although we both live in different city. I am glad that I have this special relationship with her and I trust that she is one of them that will accompany me along the journey of life.

I am glad that you have came across my life.

Of course there is so much appreciation I would like to give to all my friends. My words are always emotional, but in reality I am always appear in reverse, emotionless.
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Another farewell is coming, we had a dinner together yesterday night, it was a very short one and nothing to do with farewell, because we know that we are going to meet again. I strongly believe that.
We did not talk much until we attended the job interview together, last year around this time.

We did not expected we were end up working in the same company until the results announced. We both have our close friends that we would like to work together. But it ended up that we are the only among our friends who succeed and so it is how the story begins.

We are the newbies to this city and to work. We shared the story almost everyday although working in different office. She is one of those who taught me again hospitality and friendship. She is also one of those who supports my crazy idea and crazy with me.

Ten months in the same city, although it is not much time that we have spend together, and let's the story continues after four months (depends on our fate again).

Thanks for being a friend, a sister in this period.
Thanks for listening and sharing with me.
Thanks for introducing me to the good foods with Sofiah.
Thanks for accompany me to go shopping, movie, hiking and exploring Johor.

Until we see each other again.

Regards,
Jiao Wei.

Our first annual dinner, she is one of the committee. 

They always wanted to bring me for chicken chop but always wrong timing 

and they brought me to different places for food. 

Yesterday night with new restaurant again.

We are all the happy kids.  

我的全能老爸

他，是我人生的一个指标。

有人说，父亲是女儿上一世的情人，这意味我 老爸上辈子的 人缘很好很好，以至今生有四个女儿？

他，没有很帅的外表，朋友却不分男女老少，态度平易近人，所以每到的地方，都可以很好的和人们相处，没有四海为家，不过四海之内皆兄弟也。

他，没有读很多的书，却有着幽默和认真的态度，在最后这几年的人生，也开始对于之前很多东西，学习原谅和放下。

他，没有吃遍山珍海味，却是进得了厨房的好男人，他喜欢观察和学习，是个吃货，在认识了几个厨师朋友，也捉到了不少诀窍。（原谅我没有继承这些，不会煮菜，至今也只能煎蛋和蛋炒饭）

他，有的是豁达的人生观，虽然有时候还是会对某些事的观点喋喋不休，但他所给予我们女儿的自由，很多父母没有办法放手让孩子去跌倒成长的，他在大家都觉得我还无法离开家自主的时候，坦然的给了我绿卡，让我有机会去学习。

只是我不是一个孝顺的女儿，一味只顾着长大和往外间撞，以很多年前他担忧我的不独立为借口，越走越远，远到我无法回头。

回家，是有多久才回家一趟啊，假期，都是用来旅游和休息的，所以用更多的借口不回家。累了，没办法回家。

他没有怨，只希望我们回家的时候能够帮忙做点事儿，但当一切变的理所当然，那份沉重感，更提不起劲回家。

虽然说，回家的日子都用来面对整个家，或许每个人对家的定义都不一样，我是一只风筝，被一根长长的线牵引着，却无法 被紧紧的抓着，平衡点在于一拉一放之间。

一直想说声谢谢您，给予我们的一切 自由。